Served Grown Up, Part Deux

LindaHead_2Well here we are again, things have moved along and I must say some things have moved in directions I would have never thought possible. I am learning a great deal about myself, what I like and what I want from the world, from life and for myself I am truthfully learning every single day. One thing I have learned is there are no timetables, things happen, when they happen and unless you choose to ignore what makes you happy (which would make you an idiot) you just need to jump in with both feet and let the tide take you where it will. Another thing I have learned is there are no set rules or patterns, you might think you know it all, you might believe you know how things are going to come at you and how you are going to work the program, it simply isn’t so, things happen the way they happen.

I learned one other thing, one thing that truly surprised me about myself; I am entirely and completely susceptible to romantic gestures and a well-executed plan of action.

Where is this all leading? On 13-April, I wrote Served Grown Up Please, it was a soliloquy to what I wanted in the next man I would love. I said then I would return to my list, so as a continuation is Served Grown Up, Please II.

I Want A Grown Assed Man

He makes me laugh uproariously at life, him and me too. His jokes are never mean spirited though at times they do cut through all the political correctness we have grown accustomed too and simply says it likes he sees it.

He isn’t afraid to ask for help when he needs it. He is adult enough to recognize we all need help sometimes.

He is truthful about himself, his strengths and his weakness. He doesn’t pretend to be what he isn’t but he doesn’t hide his power either. He is clear about who he is, where he has been and what he has done in life. Takes real pride in his accomplishments, not that chest beating machismo stuff but the quiet pride of a job well done.

He listens and he remembers the important stuff. He cares enough he can hear the timber of my voice, that there are some things I just might not want to talk about today. He listens not just to my words but also to what lies beneath and can ask questions to draw me out when it is important. He knows I carry the burden of a lifetime of keeping secrets, mine and other peoples. He knows I have been hurt, my heart has been broken and encased in ice. He knows and he is strong enough to share his strength with me so I can finally let go.

He is outrageous and demanding. Yes, I said it. He knows what he wants and isn’t at all shy about stating his needs, wants and desires. There is nothing vanilla or passive in the Grown Assed Man of my dreams. His eye doesn’t wander because he values what is in front of him and he makes clear what he needs, involving his partner in all of his world both the here and now and future fantasies. He is not about “Me” in anything he does, but instead fully about “We”, knowing there are two of us in the room at all times and nothing is ever pleasure if both of us are not fully engaged and fully in the moment. He would never think to do harm or cross boundaries, never think to cause fear or discomfort.

He makes plans and executes them. He doesn’t look to others to do his planning, he doesn’t demand others run his life for him, he doesn’t blame the world when he doesn’t get exactly and specifically what he wants. He identifies what he wants, creates a plan of attack and executes that plan. He is unflinching, fearless and patient. His observations about what it takes to win are keen; he has a great eye for detail.

He has no fear of showing his own emotions, whether it is what he feels about me or about the world around him. He knows his emotions do not make him weak, instead, they prove his humanity and his strength.

He understands the power of conversation, whether it is about dreams of the future, the world around us or simply what is important; he knows how to share information. He doesn’t withhold information or dominate but simply participates in conversation fully.

He knows when to stand in front of me, when it is important to be the protector even when I don’t believe I need protection. He wouldn’t think to leave me standing alone and without a safety net, without protection. He knows there are monsters in the world and knows I have met a few of them; he wants to be a protector, without ever diminishing me as a woman or a human being.

Finally, loves me exactly as I am doesn’t want to subtract anything from me, doesn’t resent anything about me except I am late coming to his life, doesn’t condemn me or ridicule me, doesn’t want to change me. He thinks I am sexy, funny and brilliant just exactly as I am from the inside out. He appreciates my peculiarities and oddities, even those I have developed because of my life history.

Let me Repeat Myself … I Want a Grown Assed Man and This is more of what he looks like

Comments

  1. Life is too short for passiveness. You deserve a grown ass man!

  2. P.S. I love the picture! Hotness! Go on woman!

  3. Gurrrrl!! That’s all I’m a’ say! Go on and get you that Grown Ass Man! I got me one!

  4. Val, I love that photo of yourself. The laughter comes from the heart and is infectious. I want to laugh, too. Your future sounds exciting. You’re well on your way to a whole new life. It’s so exciting and I wish you all the best!

  5. Hello lovely lady! Love that you know what you want in a man, you define it and …. you see it in front of you (ok not it, him). xoxo

  6. It’s him right?

  7. I’m so very happy, for you, Val. Your joy is so infectious, I smiled as I read this post.

    Much great thoughts of friendship coming your way,
    Eric

  8. As one Marvin Gaye fan to another, Val, I think this sounds terrific. You seem to be on a very positive roll these days with both the new job and this new man.

  9. Recognizing an example is often easier than postulating an ideal. 😛 Good on you. ❤

    • Indeed, this is especially true when that example recommends ideas you have not been exposed to in your prior experience and you realize that is exactly what you need and want.

      All you are able to say after a brief pause is, ‘Dang, oh hell yes!’

      😉

  10. How awesome is that? It’s terrific to hear there are some good things on the romance front. Happy INDEPENDENCE day.

    • You also, Independence has so many different connotations doesn’t it?

      It is awesome, I am entirely enjoying romance and all it means. I don’t believe I have ever been courted, it is most excellent.

  11. Grown Assed Men can be hard to find, because they don’t spend much effort jockeying for attention. I’m glad you’ve still found one.

  12. Congratulations!!

  13. I’m sitting here grooving to Marvin Gaye and being grateful for you being happy and looking lovely, girl! Blessings! 🙂

  14. Reblogged this on It Is What It Is and commented:
    Fulfilled desires!!

  15. That is simply awesome!! I life your care free, wide smiled look & great ink! I can see it in your expression. Loving it …. enjoying it with you! ❤️

  16. Sometimes we’re so busy looking, we fail to see what’s right before our eyes. Glad you were able to spot it…or him… 😉

  17. Jackie Saulmon Ramirez says:

    Marvin Gaye is excellent; one of my favorites!

  18. Reblogged this on The ObamaCrat™.

  19. Mmmmmmmmmm……even me, being a straight man, would love this grown assed man, described in this post, as MINE!!!
    ~♥~ ʚ(ˆ◡ˆ)ɞ ~♥~
    So pleased for you that you have found what was always right in front of you, you deserve a grown assed man who appreciates the whole you, time out for having little boys in your life Ms. Valentine.

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